Sloth continues

They don't miss me at the gym. I do not miss the gym. I miss the time to focus on me... That is what i miss. Where I do not have to think about anyone but me... and I wonder why I have to do that in the gym and nowhere else. I am looking around me at the stuff and the clutter and I wonder how I am going to make that change and make it happen. I know what I want to do and want to be able to do. What is stopping me from following through and doing it? Does it seem so maddening and familiar? Is it the whole complete thing that gets me? Can I break it up into bite size pieces? What can I do to get this going?

Too long

I have been too long away and fighting myself on many levels. I am trying to find peace. It's difficult. I want to make a difference. I want to change things for the better. My work is great because I get to think right now... and that is a godsend.

new book

Evanovich, Finger Lickin' Fifteen.

*sigh*

I will be done with it in 3 hours, tops.

Headway?

Headway. Does sweating count while cleaning in a warm environment? Is that like hot yoga? I am comfortable with my lovely laundry room and I spent time there last night, time that I could have been "exercising" but I was working up a sweat. The shelves hold their items and I have more to put on the shelves. I am making headway in my house. There are still many things to do to get ready for summer, and I am halfway there. There is still a LOT to do. I guess I will not be going to the gym for a bit.

Saturday excitement!

Well, my list is made, and the hope is that it is a doable enough list so that I can really get something accomplished today. It involves a lot of cleaning and moving and such and I am really really hoping it will work. I am crossing my fingers. And then I will uncross them and get to work because it has less to do with luck and more to do with getting off my happy ass and doing it. Damn Nike and their "Just Do It!" slogan, but it the only way that things get done. You cannot expect to own a book, or a DVD or a weight set or a bowflex and expect it to magically melt fat off of you, make you feel better, or make you a happier, healthier person. It requires work.

I just found the peaches I bought more than a few days ago. They are quite ripe and a little past their prime. I salvaged what I could of them, and cut them up for this morning's breakfast. Now I just need to find my dining room table ... It is here somewhere under my laptop my papers and the list... guess I ought to add that to the list as well.

Sometimes

there isn't enough coffee. Sometimes you need donuts. or a hash brown. But you can remain tall and stand up and say no, that is not part of my goals. I will eat something better.

Let's see if I can do that this morning, and make a change for the better.

Exercise

Not cardio but I was sweating and working hard. Here's hoping it will mae a difference. All I am thinkingabout is rosemary foccacia... That is all that I want. YUM. Maybe I can make some tomorrow morning. Right now, I am wiped and going to bed.