The abyss

I am in an abyss. It's a mental one. I see my girls and I hug them and I love them, but my happiness doesn't reach my soul. The desire to do is gone. I am existing. But I do not feel like I am doing.

The laundry, the dishes, the table only are cleared when it is necessary. I forget things. My world shrinks to work church and children. I am shocked at my lack of knowledge of things and then i just don't care.

I want it to be different. I just don't know what to do to make it better.