Sunday, January 31, 2010

Snow day, #2

The bright white of the sun reflecting on the snow means there is no need for regular lights in the house. The sky is Denver blue, a clean clear atmosphere is making for fabulous contrasts both inside and out.

Soup is on the stove and I plan on making some good bread today. All the Christmas things are put away and I feel like I am looking at a new phase in our lives.

My good mood that is with me normally has returned. I am glad to be alive, glad for the life alive inside me and I thank God for the opportunities and love I have. I hope that I can share the good news of happiness and life. I want the negative to shed like a shin and be forgotten. I look up at the blue sky and it seems possible today. To begin anew, have new worlds to work towards and enjoy the ride. Life is about the journey.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Snow day

When you think about snow days, you think about staying home from school, not having to go anywhere or do anything. The quiet solitude is a beautiful thing that makes for introspection.

Except when there is a 3 year old that will NOT STOP TALKING.


Now that she is in bed for her nap, I can relax... frst time since 5:30 this morning. My husband will disappear for awhile upstairs and this morning he stayed in bed until 7am. I was jealous. I usually wake up once or twice during the night. 3:30 there was no snow on the ground. 5:30, there finally was a dusting. Then, as we finally put the Christmas decorations away it started to snow heavily. And it hasn't stopped. The tracks from this morning are covered.

After breakfast, I dressed, went outside and put up suet, filled the finch feeder and refilled the regular bird feeder. I also put some on the ground. I think they got most of the seed prior to the snow hitting it and covering it up. Now the birds are a stark contrast to the white, hopping around on the ground, looking for items that have fallen, hanging upside down to get at the sock of finch food. I counted as many as 8 on the sock. I just put these up in January. I had them last winter and I got away from it as summer and fall stretched into winter. But when the snow fell in December, I started thinking that they needed to have somewhere to eat. So I went and purchased a new finch sock, and a new feeder. I also put new holders up to help me fill them quicker and easier.

The wind is picking up and blowing snow. This will make life interesting.

I cleaned off my car and had to move about the last time we had a good 10 inches of snow in December of 09. With the all wheel drive, I am more confident, but not cocky about traversing in the snow. Granted my gas mileage is terrible, but I am ok trading that off for that option. Especially when I am traveling to Ohio and the odd time I need it here in Virginia.

I think after I finish here I will relax for awhile and do one more project before the girl wakes up.

Thursday, January 28, 2010


I seem to attach to a doctor and like them... probably far more than I should. I trust them... and I saw a doc yesterday that I didn't trust, didn't like and would prefer never to cross their path again. This one was part of an advanced team because I am labled "high risk" due my age and some chemical analysis that i am not privvy to. And if there is one thing I do not like, it is being annoyed by someone who thinks I am not smart enough to understand. i have had other doctors that I like and respect. But more and more, I look at some of the things and I say, I do not like that. I do not like how I am treated. Now, that doesn't change my risk factors. But tell me the other options, and give me the information. I can research and figure it out. I am not and average ordinary pregnant woman. I am not average or ordinary when I am not pregnant.

There have been 2 doctors in my time here in Richmond that I prefer never to see again. Sometimes I do not have that option... they just happen to be on call or something. But the last time I was physically in this woman's presence (3 years ago) I was not feeling friendly or scared. She annoyed me, she made me angry, she literally stopped my labor. I had been progressing along nicely until she came along. I then had to deal with her on the phone as well during this time. And she was not nice. I won't work with her again. i really could care less if she were the last doctor in Richmond. There is no way I would let her near me.

The person I saw yesterday, maybe. One meeting... I shouldn't project. But I was... annoyed. Not uncomfortable, but annoyed. I will end up seeing him again eventually, but if I don't have to, if I have a choice... no thanks.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Finally ... some exercise

i did 2 miles on the treadmill at Gold's gym. My calves are still tight. I did ok. When I pushed it to 3mph it was too much so I kept it at between 2.5 and 2.8.

that was on Monday. I really would like to get into a rythym but I will take it as I can get it. Waking up late at night too, but not much I can do about that.

Feeling ok otherwise.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

cravings and exercise

I just wish i would crave exercise. i made a commitment to walk the monument avenue 10K. I am going to sign up for the Race for the Cure as well. Why do this when I am not so active and expecting a child? Where was my head?

Well, it will be the the 4th year for the RFTC and my 3rd year for the 10K. I really do not want to miss it. So I am looking at my options and I say, you know... it would be a good idea to exercise. It would only help me with my muscles. it would be a good thing. Less fat on my body means more room for the other stuff, like baby and all those squished organs. will I be running? no. Walking? yes. So I am making the commitment to do this. have I started? No. i wanted to work with the Wii fit and do the step stuff and then progress to the treadmill. As it gets warmer, I will walk outside.

the cravings I have are for salty things. Last night it was ramen noodles. most of the time it is salt and vineagar potato chips. I try not to pig out on those things and just keep them to a minimum if possible. The milkshake craving happened with MM but not with this one. it goes in stages too.

Time to get ready for work. Taking Mm to the dentist today.

Friday, January 8, 2010

The end of Christmas

Epiphany was on January 6th, and I always wait until after Epiphany to take down my decorations. his year, I am sad to take them down, probably because it took me so long to get them up and I feel like I didn't get a chance to enjoy them. But when I went to "put out" the decorations that I has, I realized this house is just not big enough for my decorations. i want ot be able to put them in all areas, and unfortunately, that is not the case. And when you have a husband who worked in retail for 15+ years, he has no desire to decorate or listen to Christmas music at all. Makes for a lot of solo work. MM is getting to an age where she will be able to help... next Christmas. But it seems like a lot of work and no one enjoys it but me. Well, it did not feel like anyone shared the joy with me.

It was an odd Christmas and I am kind of glad it is over and we will see what this new year brings. But the good news is that I am working on the storage unit and getting totes and boxes OUT OF THE HOUSE and into the storage unit located about 2 miles from here. With any luck and a lot of work, we can clear out some of these things while we look for a new home and prep to sell this home. Am I ready to part with some of them? Yes. Right now? Possibly. But I feel like I want to get some new place and then start purging once I figure out space requirements. i have some silver that has been given to me. I have no desire to get rid of it at all. But I need to find some place to put it.

The one things I have more of than other things is a collection of ugly green pottery. I have tried to put it to use, but someof it is just. there. I have some attachment to it. But not a whole lot. I like some of it, Others I think I will sell if possible. martini glasses? I can't drink much anymore, but I would like to host a party and make some martinis for my guests. Lots of wine glasses. champagnes flutes from our wedding. gorgeous goblets from my first wedding. I get to wrap and pack all these items away. Will I ever bring them out again? We'll see.

I guess just like the seasons change and the world rolls and fluctuates we all have our time to wax and wane though items, through friendships. Here's hoping this go round the sun this year is smoother and not as exciting as the last. Yes, please, I would like a boring year. Thanks.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010


Interesting thing it is... as a mom, i have to deal with poop all the time. As a mom to be, I know that there will be more in my future. So now I have a 3 year old who is potty trained on the water side, but when it comes to solid waste we are firmly in the dark ages. Last night we had an incident where we were in the tub and she went and tried to pick it up and put it in the potty... but she had been eating a lot of fruit, so OK enough visual. The fact of the matter is she was very upset and my husband went in and made her more upset. I tried to explain to him that we really cannot get upset about this and it is a learning process. So i had to calm her down and scrub her from head to toe. And sanitize the baby... etc. etc. etc.

So by the time I finish cleaning and sanitizing stuff... she had calmed down enough and we had some quiet time. Then she went to bed and woke up around 11 or so crying. I walked in the room and I immediately could smell it. She had a runny diaper and boy was THAT fun to clean. I set her on the changing table... she's half asleep and crying, and I am scrubbing her bottom. So this morning, she sleeps in late and now... what do I smell? yes... and it looks as if I will be staying home with her today, the 2nd work day of the year.... ugh. I mentally shrug... it is just poop, hopefully not from a virus, but from too much fruit and possibly citrus.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Soft addictions

The front page article today in the Flairsection of the Richmond Times Dispatch spoke of soft addictions. Things that "fritter " time away. Things like Facebook, and My Space, computer games and TV or internet surfing. I am guilty of such things. The latest is Jewel Quest. A game I have played in the past and I am trying to master now. I was addicted to facebook for awhile, playing the Zynga games on there. But they bored me because there was no newness to them. I will tire of Jewel Quest eventually as well.

I think about the other things we get addicted to. Shopping, eating, exercising. These things are soft. Unlike the hard addictions of body/mind altering substances, porn, caffeine, smoking. These could kill you. These have a detrimental effect on your daily life should they be done in something other than moderation.

One could argue that the soft addictions have a way of effecting your daily life as well. Your project, or that paper you were going to write, the books you wanted to read, the interaction with your family are lost as you click, surf, and play. Human interaction is what counts in the long run. You will never have wanted to spend more time at the office, being jealous and angry or petty over intended or unintended slights. You will never have wanted to get to the next level on Mafia wars...(there is no highest level, as my husband pointed out... it is endless).

Ah but there are those of us who love to play games. Perhaps your partner does not like to play the logic games or the word games that you like to... but instituting a family game night or working a crossword together is a way to make an inroad. Just being with them and talking can make a difference. I love to play word games and logic games.

Now I have a list of things to do, but I think I am going to do one board of Jewel Quest before I do that. Then after I accomplish something, I will come back. Moderation. Moderation.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

A resolution

i resolve to exercise at least 15 minutes a day. it would be really nice to exercise and I want to waddle in the Monument ave 10k, and i will not be able to do that unless I start exercising. I am sure the baby won't mind.

It will take me forever to finish, but that is ok. This will be my third year and although I will definitely not beat my last year's time, as long as I am in it to finish I will be fine. Maybe I will even dress up this year. Something funny.

I want to listen to more music, so I started some playlist on Windows media. I will have to get them transferred over to the MP3 because the wee sing is driving me nuts. Right now it is a Buffett mix. I am enjoing it. I miss listening to music.

I have gadget envy. My hubby got the ipod touch and a blackberry for work. Jealous. :)

i will get over it.

Friday, January 1, 2010

Happy New Year

I have not posted in awhile. News in my world is that I am expecting a child, a little girl, that is due in June. So the focus of my word is shift, yet again.

I am looking forward to spending some time with my brother and his family. Now I need to wrap some present for them.

Ciao for now.